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18 October 2006

Ferberization: Report 3

This sucks. This sucks. This sucks. This sucks.

3:45 AM, my baby has been violently screaming for 43 minutes now and is not calming herself one bit.
I sit here and wonder- is she hurt, is she sad, is she hungry, is she scared? Why is tonight such a hard one for both of us? Is it the lack of sleep on my end making me more sensitive? Did I secretly think, hope and wish tonight, day 3, all our sleep trauma would be solved? Is she not handling this OK? Does she have a better memory than everyone says a 4 mo old is capable, thus is remembering that her mommy is completely ignoring her cries for help? Am I raising her wrong............
do these worries ever stop?

2 more minutes...the slowest of my life!

Wait. At last, quiet. Is it a tease? Is it for real? Could she be asleep? How long will it last?

Will I be able to sleep now, or will I worry about all these infinite questions......................

good night

Next Morning addendum: OK, so really isn't wasn't all that bad. She fell asleep in 45 minutes and didn't wake again until
6:15 and was happy as a little clam:) :) :) :) :) :) :)

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