Free Moment

I am in the middle of one my few cherished free moments as both girls are safely, and lovingly, accounted for- Ana with her beloved mimis (blankets) tucked away in bed, and Taylor in Daddy's arms without tears (BIG FEAT for this time of night with her)...way to go Daddy- so, I thought I'd do a quick update to record how this first, almost, month has been in the Toson house. Easy, unfortunatley, is not a word I can use to describe how our transition is going. However, fast is appropriate. Taylor is challenging us in new ways and Ana is coming along for the ride.

Taylor is healthy and growing quickly, even getting a few rolls, but doesn't seem to agree with life quite yet. She still is either eating or fussing with quick cat naps in between. I know we had these days with Ana, but it's quite different with Taylor as I don't have the time or undivided attention that I had for Ana. And for that I feel awful....I wonder every second what I'm missing when giving one attention and not able to give my 100% to the other...a juggling act I'm sure I will forever struggle with, but hope in time one that will ease up. One thing is for sure though and that is our immediate and constant unconditional love for her. Night time, while filled with her "fussy" time, is still one of the best in that I finally can just stare at her and all her delicate and beautiful features that zoom by during our crazy days. I am looking forward to her 1 month check up next week to see how much she's grown and changed in the eyes of the doctor! It's hard to belive it's already been one month. WOW!

Ana is BLOSSOMING and is just the best big sister around. She is so helpful with all the "baby needs" and loves to give Taylor love and kisses. Every morning and night is begun or concluded with self requested "Tay Tay, kiss" from Ana. She is just so sweet! Her language continues to AMAZE Justin and I as we have full conversations with our 1 year old. She is already answering quite abstract questions, following 2 and 3 step directions, labeling emotions of herself and others, and having full back and forth conversations with all her toys while playing make believe. It's just so fun to watch her.

All in all the month has been nothing short of a miracle and I know, even with all the new challenges that slam us in the face daily, we will look back and wish we could take these days back. So Justin and I continue our support of one another to make it through, and do our best to see the greatness that is before us (something we could work on!). Thank you to EVERYONE who has, and continues to, support us with time, advice, thoughts, gifts, kinds words and moments of sanity through this all. It is NOT FORGOTTEN!